can this type of low self esteem ever be repaired?
im 31 now and have suffered a very unfortunate traumatic life so far missed on ; forming ‘ any’ relationships – being employed – getting an education and qualifications..
i have a criminal past, spent time in a mental hospital years ago.
today i live alone, socially alienated, isolated from society reliant upon mental health services for support, im taking what their offering – you know ?
i was diagnosed 2 years ago with bpd personality disorder and ptsd symptoms , my main problems in life have been ; severe aggression, severe low self worth , unable to form relationships, panic anxiety problems , ptsd and agoraphobia.
ive manged my rage very well for years and been pursuing help for myself for my problems because im aware of my issues, ive not had consistant help, only in last 2 years , they failed me in a way.
one of my biggest problems is severe low self worth as a result of all the mental torture and bullying i have suffered in life..
guys , people with vigor and determination to break me , break my spirit , say cruel things to make me feel completly ‘ worthless ‘
time and time again people have done it , more so when i was younger , preyed upon me said things, victimised me from the rest, singled me out , played mind games especially for me, taunted me endlessly , reduced me to feeling absolutley unlovable and worthless, this has been done by alot of people throughout my life..
i have survived and now seek help and are determined to achieve a life for myself inspite of my disadvantages.
because of this i have a hatred for britain and the establishment now, and my utimate ambition, my goal, is to emigrate once my shht is sorted.
now here the question: considering how bad i was tormented mentally, bullied, singled out vigorously, consistantly ( that bad )
how does one get his self esteem back when the cause of destroying it has been so intense and so severe ?
the type of people whove done this mental torture is ; authority figures in the mental establishment , other authority figures , social peers at high school etc.
they attacked my self esteem with vigor and consistancy and destroyed it .
after that bad of experience how do you get your self esteem and belief back ?
You are a person of worth and great value. You have been told differently many times until you believed a lie. You must now hear the Truth over and over until you believe that!
When you believed a lie about yourself and who you are, you began to act and live the way you felt about yourself. The same can happen when you begin to hear truth and your life can turn around!!!!
Yes that kind of self esteem Can be repaired! I’ve known of of much worse cases than yours! So there is hope!
Also do you have Any spiritual life? Email me about that! I will do anything I can to help You! I know it has not been your reality, but there are lots of people who care and are genuinely nice!!!!
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Comment from think_happy_2day0x
Time February 16, 2010 at 6:44 pm
A lot of F*&$K#G work in cognitive therapy, self=help in reading on this subject and how to raise yrself from it, and trying to create a more positive life, social circle that is supportive, meeting people who share your interests (if you have any), instead of putting yrself around people people who you feel the need to get approval from, that you will probably NEVER get approval from but only ridicule.
What has been a great curiosity or interest for you? Start finding out about it, growing yr knowledge and expertise and perhaps you might take it to hobby status and then an employment opportunity.
Good Luck!
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Comment from Katrina H
Time February 16, 2010 at 7:23 pm
You are a person of worth and great value. You have been told differently many times until you believed a lie. You must now hear the Truth over and over until you believe that!
When you believed a lie about yourself and who you are, you began to act and live the way you felt about yourself. The same can happen when you begin to hear truth and your life can turn around!!!!
Yes that kind of self esteem Can be repaired! I’ve known of of much worse cases than yours! So there is hope!
Also do you have Any spiritual life? Email me about that! I will do anything I can to help You! I know it has not been your reality, but there are lots of people who care and are genuinely nice!!!!
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Comment from weathershinyjules
Time February 16, 2010 at 7:53 pm
Yes, all things are possible. Mine is a long story which would be too long to put here. But I did it, so I’m proof you can. Not saying it’s easy though.
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Comment from Twilight Lover11
Time February 16, 2010 at 7:58 pm
First of all you got ALOT of problems, you just need to toughen up and don’t let yourself get bullied stand up to bullies
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Comment from William O
Time February 16, 2010 at 8:45 pm
families are losing children to sexual predators and serial killers,families are losing their children to senseless school shootings,rape and murder are rampant,grandmothers and grand fathers have lost life savings to diabolical institutions,people are losing their jobs of 15/20 years,they are losing their homes,the homeless and starving are everywhere,the innocent are dying to needless wars,families will never completely overcome tragedies such as 9/11,natural disaster has taken millions of lives,”Consider” these devastating traumas,then consider your petty problem of ”self esteem”.
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Comment from Babygirl
Time February 16, 2010 at 6:16 pm
You take it one day at a time …..You remind yourself that the people who made you feel this way only did it to make themselves feel good for one reason or another. They are the ones who are worthless and should have no meaning. Don’t let them think that they have won!!! Take it slow keep reminding yourself that you are not worthless and that you have a lot of good points..write down your good points stay positive and don’t let anything negative get in your way. Hope this helped and let me know how you are doing. You can email me anytime.
XOXO
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