My Panic Attack Solution

It happened about 4 something in the morning and my boy friend and I love to stay up late and talk on the phone. When suddenly I remember two back stabbers saying that we were prolly gonna start fighting and then just stop fighting.

Right after that I told him about it got up and walked into my closet(the door was still open) to get a towl, cause I was crying and my nose was running and well, yeah I’m weird, but anyways he was having to yell at me for me to listen to him saying that it wasn’t gonna happen and I was just saying but you’re yelling at me and stuff and I finally just kept saying I’m scared over and over then I just leaned against the wall in my closet and he asked me a question and I just told him to hang on cause I was trynig to catch my breath.

Finally I sank to the floor and held the middle of my chest, since it was pounding and burning and just in other words hurting like crap. I instantly thought I was having a heart attack, I got even more scared and my boyfriend told me that I was having a panic attack but I wasn’t sure. I have gotten alot of cold flashes lately and I’m just trying to tell my self it’s not gonna happen again and to not worry about it. But honestly I have always been parniod that some one is behind me or watching me or I’m gonna find a dead body or something is gonna attack me, just stupid stuff. I can’t even go in the bathroom without freakin’ out. I dunno if that increases it or what. But I’ve always been bad about that.

Well anyways, while I was trying to get a hold of my sekf my boyfriend told me to go tell my mother immediantly. See I’m simply 14 and I dunno if this makes it worse or what but I have fainting problems where I just suddenly get stomach aches, headaches then I just hit the ground cold for about 20 minutes. I was told by my doctor that that happens cause I’m anemic so I dunno if that effects that.

But also he just finally started to demand me to go tell my mom I’m having a panic attack and I thought I was having a heart attack but I just demanded it. I basicly tried to slow my breathing and just flat out said, No I’m fine. But it was real raspy so he could tell that I was still having it.

I honestly have no idea how long it lasted, seemed like 20 minutes now, but while I was having it, everything just happened so quick. I’m trying to tell my self it’s not goona happen, but I just get scared that it is again.

Also, if this helps any, I’ve even been having some annoying headaches lately, I have one right now and I just had it about 20 to 40 minutes ago. And I still have abit of chest and stomach pains.

Also, I know I should talk to my mom, but I’m pretty sure she’ll just say, ‘Oh don’t worry, you’re fine, you just almost fainted, you’re okay.’ Since that’s how she normally is. She doesn’t really believe me about medical/health stuff. So if anyone tells me to tell my mom can you please tell me what to say and how to do it.

Sounds like you have General Anxiety Disorder.
Please see your school councellor about this. They can properly diagnose you and give help and support, and possibly they can refer you to a psychologist if its needed. They can also help you to tell your mum so she will take this seriously.

Don’t worry, this is very common, especially in early teens. (I was 14 when I experienced a similar thing). Everything gets better, trust me;) You might need to go on some sort of meds for a while, just until you get out of high school.

But definately tell a trusted adult and seek help. Good luck, you’ll get through this:)