Panic Attack or something more? (long)?
I know this is a panic attack, but I don’t know if maybe it’s something more.
I started seeing in frames, like there were 3 people standing right next to each other a few feet away from me but it seemed like they were on opposite sides of the room, all in different frames, and I had to move my head to see each one of them. My body didn’t feel real anymore.
Then I got up and was standing for a minute and all of a sudden I was on top of a mountain and I stepped off and I was falling, I felt like I wanted to puke and right before I hit the bottom I woke up.
All my friends were in front of me and my boyfriend was holding onto me, he said "Anna, are u ok? are u there?" and i said "what happened?" he told me i puked all over myself and i had two seizures.
I started freaking out and thought I had taken acid and my whole life had been fake, I didn’t remember who my friends were or my boyfriend. I thought they were fake friends who were just made up by the devil to try to lure me into hell. i was tracking my mind trying to think of what was making me feel this way, and i kept saying "that movie was real! that movie was real!" and i was screaming at the top of my lungs because i thought i was going to die or i was trapped inside a body that wasn’t mine, it’s hard to explain.
Then I just remember seeing all my friends in front of me and i was laying down and they were talking about what they should do, but i thought they were just putting on an act and then were going to send me to hell, i guess i had another seizure while i was thinking all of this. it was like i was trapped in my mind and i couldn’t control my body.
Then I just decided that i had to get away from them, i didn’t want to die, so I leapt to my feet (i can NOT do that when i’m normal) and ran at full speed, just b lined it straight forward and i ended up running into a garage door because we were in this guy’s garage.
I fell on the floor and passed out because I just remember waking up in my friend’s car and they were taking me to the hospital. i started thinking to myself "its okay, they’re my FRIENDS and josh is my BOYFRIEND. they don’t want to kill me i’m just freaking out" i ended up calming myself down and i was fine, but i’ve never been the same since. i’ve had a couple more of these but nothing as severe.
we smoked weed that night, but nothing more than how much i usually do, and none of them had nearly the same effects from it as i did. so i don’t think it could have been laced, wouldnt they have felt something?
oh, i also was hallucinating a bunch of still frames in my mind, and i see these things every time i had another panic attack. some of them have to do with heroin syringes and vomitting, and i will see people that i don’t know just sitting around talking. and every action i make, whether it be grabbing my foot or touching my head, means im getting closer to dying or hell and i will freak out even more.
i havent had an episode in a year because i can basically control them now….
any ideas?
This sounds like a lot more than just a panic attack.
I think you need to see someone. Talk to a psychologist or something.
I would also suggest you find out more about mental health issues and such. It might help you to understand what your going through a little more.
Try websites like reachout.com.au or beyondblue.org
Good luck, and take care.
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Comment from Sar-Rawrr!!
Time January 6, 2010 at 3:23 am
This sounds like a lot more than just a panic attack.
I think you need to see someone. Talk to a psychologist or something.
I would also suggest you find out more about mental health issues and such. It might help you to understand what your going through a little more.
Try websites like reachout.com.au or beyondblue.org
Good luck, and take care.
References :
http://www.reachout.com.au
http://www.beyondblue.org
Comment from Bubbly Blonde
Time January 6, 2010 at 4:13 am
W T F!!!
You weren’t having a panic attack you silly """""!! You were having a bad trip. Drugs have different effects on different people & even the same drug can affect the same person differently one trip to the next!!
Do yourself a favour, get out of the circle of friends that you take drugs with, get your boyf out (if you can) & STAY THE F AWAY FROM THEM!!!!!!
You can also suffer hallucinogenic episodes when not actively taking as the stuff can stay in your system & anxiety, or if your stress levels rise then it’ll cause your heart to pump harder & the stuff will be pushed around into your system again.
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Comment from werido
Time January 6, 2010 at 2:51 am
Chill out my friend . I think your bugging out.
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